Hey There!

Well, I just wanted to say thank you to my one and only follower. I'm going to treat you to this wonderful thought I was having today. I made a big mistake on twitter yesterday by voicing a thought I was having about slash and other things that were perverted to some. Maybe you saw it since you follow me. I was thoroughly embarrassed but it made me realize more than ever that I have to be me every minute of the day no matter how that makes other people feel. I go through a lot just like everybody else trying to make it out here in this thing called life. Anyway, don't cry for me I learned my fucking lesson. I not going to run down a sob story because in all honesty I'm just happy to be alive.


You know who made me feel better Teambella23. As much as we talk shit too each other she is like a sister to me because she is so sweet. If I could have given her a hug I would have because my heart felt lighter and I felt like laughing before I had time to think and over analyze my actions. So thanks Mary for having my back.


I am supposed to be beta'ing Through His Eyes by its-rpattz-baby but I have been procrastinating for the past two days. Its a shorter chapter and everything but I'm all emotional and shit because of my fucking cycle. TMI my bad but its true. My husband asked me, "Why haven't you been on twitter since yesterday? You are hiding and not facing your problems. That's just not you. You are the strongest person I know. If they disagree with what you were saying or whatever doesn't make you opinion invalid. Its not like you to crawl under a rock and not face the music." He's right but there is no music to face. I'm just embarrassed as hell!


Well my train of thought was broken by my sister getting on my fucking nerves annoying the shit out of me. Yes, my middle oldest sister. I'm the quote on quote baby of the family. I think all four of her children want to spend the night tomorrow or she wants them too! I guess that's cool I better check with the hubby for sure though. She wasn't really getting on my nerves but she did fuck up my bitching session. Maybe that's a good thing.


Now back to my bitch fest! No I'm over it I hate complaining it makes me seem ungrateful which I hate. ColdPlay is helping to calm me down and get some perspective. I am currently reading Cullen Technologies, Inc. It's about to get good too not that it already isn't but its about to turn up a notch. I'm on chapter five. I read two stories by MsKathy Good Boy & Double Date. Fucking hot and that's all I will say about that like Forest Gump. Ha ha.


I can't wait to bake tomorrow maybe a cake or a coffee cake. Cupcakes more than likely that way the kids don't make to much of a mess. I am going to teach my oldest niece to make banana bread. She is allergic to nuts, so I had to adapt many recipes for my sweet breads. I don't use nuts but it tastes like there are some in there. Yeah it was freaking hard to do.


I jump around from thought to thought as you can see. I'm feeling guilty I better beta T.H.E. ASAP! That's all for now. Maybe more mindless rabbling tomorrow. You write wonderful stories that's why I recommend them. You really had me tearing up with the black balloon entry. Just thinking about it I'm tearing up that's just good ass writing. It effected my spirit and heart plus it gave me something to think about. Peace. Take care of yourself.