THE Chapter 30 Teaser

I turned my back and walked up the driveway to the front door, listening as his car pulled away from the curb with a loud screech and flew down the street. I froze in place, caught my breath to fight that lingering unease in my chest and entered the house.

Phil was home but Renee wasn’t. I considered by passing him up to my room without a word but he caught me just as my foot found the first step.

“Hi Bella.” I turned to the sound of his voice and didn’t even bother to hide my emotions.

“Hey,” I replied dryly. I didn’t make a move from the steps. I needed to be alone as soon as possible.

“How was your night?” he asked casually, leaning against the wall with his arms crossed.

I paused as visions of the night before flashed through my mind. I fought back the tears that were threatening to spill at the turn of events and replied with a mumbled and unenthusiastic “Fine.”

“I’m heading out in just a bit anyways... have a few errands to run.” He stated to my disinterest. I nodded mutely before turning back toward the stairs and hurrying up to my room.

Once inside, I shut the door and threw myself onto my bed, collapsing like an old rag doll as I nuzzled my face into the pillow where I lay on my stomach. I wanted nothing more than to escape the world and its negatives for a few hours.

I switched my phone off, not in the mood for being disturbed, grabbed my iPod and stuffed the ear phones into my ears. I switched it onto shuffle, turned up the music and curled into my bed, surrendering myself completely to the natural pull of sleep.


L4J Note: I'm currently beta'ing this chapter and I can't wait to read it. Oh shit, wtf is going on with Bella? Let's keep it real she never goes radio silent. I'm hoping Edward didn't fuck something up?! Damn it these two I tell ya. Until next time, you know I love you guys. Be good out there okay be as good as you can be lol. Peace.


Here's the link:  http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5460646/1/Through_His_Eyes


Here's the summary: Carlisle's moved to Forks in hopes of taming Edward's ways. But it seems it will take more than a new town to help Edward deal with the horrors of his past. Edward is weary of getting close to people but will Bella change that for Edward? AH

Recommendations

October (In order by the date I read them!)


Okay readers this is when it gets dicey. When my notebook went down I had to read via cell and my recommendations spreadsheet was not updated so I have no idea which I read first or last so here we go. Do you still love me? I hope so let's get on with the show.


Raw and Rosy by tuesdaymidnight Jasper Hale hates his high school rival Edward Cullen with a passion. What happens when Jasper discovers Edward's little secret? Spank!Fic. AH/AU/OOC. Rated M. Contains mature content. NRY


This Is Not My Life by isakassees Follow Bella as she tries to survive a madman's abduction and keep a stranger's child from succumbing to his wild fantasies, and follow Edward as he tries to stay sane searching for his daughter taken right before his eyes. NRY


To the Wolves by Jezunya To prevent war with the Quileute kingdom, Carlisle Cullen must give up the first daughter born to his family & throw her to the wolves - literally. Political intrigues, murder, seduction, war... and, of course, true love at first sight. AU. VRA


Love Between Sexes by EFC Edward & Jasper were roommates in University. They both have wives and new lives now, but a three day reunion will force them to examine the relationship they chose not to explore and left behind so many years ago. SLASH ExJ VRA


Once Bitten, Twice Shy by cereuleanblue AU, Bella x Edward, Bella was taken by James and held captive for weeks. She returns home with a special gift. Who was her mysterious savior and what is the cause of her new powers? Will she find the answers she needs in her new home in Forks? NRY


For The Love Of My Obsession by rmcrms5 He met the girl of his dreams. She met the man of her nightmares. How far would you go for your obsession? AH/AU/OOC For the BEYOND THE PALE contest on ff VRA


Ride by kris salvador Bella wanted to fulfill a fantasy - to be groped inside a crowded train. She gets her wish and more, when a sex-starved ex-convict decides she's fair game. AU. Mature but with plot. VRA


Twinned by Conversed Edward and Masen Cullen look identical, but mistake them at your peril. Watch as their carefully constructed world falls apart when they meet the new girl in town. There's slash, smut and Jasper having shower sex with y'all. Are you ready for it? NRY


The Surrogate by TayBee Chapter 5: "It hit me like a wrecking ball. Esme and Carlisle were dead, and I was a two months pregnant with their baby." AH, OOC, Bella, desperate for cash, becomes a surrogate. It's only for nine months, right? VRA


Green by Bratty-Vamp What happens when lawn-boy, geek, and self-proclaimed social leper finds himself in a situation that shakes his comfortable invisibility? Will he stay green? AU- All human. NRY


My Boyfriends Jeans by ILOVETWILIGHT79 His well worn jeans were slung low on his hips and dirty from working all day... Edward/Jasper- Rated M for a reason. VRA


Menage by She Isn't Here When the Cullen brothers come across an injured Bella on the side of the road, they take her home to care for her. They quickly realize that she is "the one" and will do anything to protect her. And they'll never let her go. J/E/B/E No slash or incest. NRY


Unplanned Perfection by littlecat358 Bella and Alice were best friends, which made Bella the only girl off limits to Alice's brother Edward. When a party the summer after graduation gets out of control, Bella's world is turned upside down. "He doesn't know. I don't want him to." LANG/LEMONS VRA


One shots


Cravings by TKegl PLOT BUNNY CONTEST ENTRY - Edward, Alice, and Jasper volunteer to help Carlisle at the Forks High Blood Drive, and who should come in to donate, but new student Bella Swan. Can Edward resist the call of her blood... or her body? VRA


McFearless by TeamBella23 "This is all wrong, it even feels wrong but fuck, it feels good." A night of firsts for Edward and Jasper… Written for the Slash Backslash 2.0 Contest. AH/AU VRA


Dirty Laundry by queenofgrey ENTRY FOR SLASH BACKSLASH 2.0. It's laundry day at Edward's, & the laundry room is the dirtiest place in the house. If the spin cycle's a-rockin', don't come a-knockin'. Or do, if you're Jasper. Rated M, obviously. AR


OPERATION: Breakup by tiffaninichole Finalist in the Slash/Backslash 2 Contest! It's easy to say that Jasper & Edward hate each other because it's an absolute truth. Despite their mutual disdain, they agree to combine forces for one purpose: to break up their best friends. Will they succeed? VRA


Lust: A Tale of Sexual Relations Between Neighbors by Lipsmacked My addition to the "Confessions of a Sinner" compilation brought to you by Guineapigbarbie. An AU/AH/OOC One-Shot. Rated M for citrusy goodness. VRA


Sex Gods and Limo Rides by Kayanne Our Entry for the Who's line is it anyway Kittenmischief contest. Bella meets a mysterious stranger who makes her seriously hot and bothered. One-shot Rated M-it's a LEMON! NRY


Just a Kiss by GreenEyedGirl17 My FGB one-shot for cawilliams1. Summary: Bella and Edward are complete strangers and meet at a baseball game when the 'kiss cam' is zoomed in on them for all to see. One kiss isn't going to complicate things too much, right? AH/MA NRY


As You Wish by WutheringBites Bella has suffered from a long infatuation with the enigmatic and silent Edward Cullen. On her birthday, Bella is taken to the cheese-tastic Medieval Times, but when the Dark Knight singles her out, can Bella forget about Edward? VRA


Teach Me How To Dougie by tiffaninichole Entry for the Teach Me The Nasty Contest! Boring, nerdy Bella agrees to enter a dance contest with friends. The problem: She can't dance. At all. VRA


Him by tiffaninichole A string of violent kidnappings leaves the sorority houses of UT shaken. Will the new safety precautions embraced by the Beta Delta Nu house be enough to keep Bella safe from harm? VRA


Ain't Nothin' but Sex by LoveHGSS Jasper is Bella's sex-dummy… and he does not mind in the least. Shameless Jasper/Bella smut and proud of it! NRY


Fishin' by ladyinblue6 Smut Summer Countdown entry. Charlie's home from university, and he goes fishing to think about life. Renee stumbles upon his little hideout and things start getting frisky in the heat of the night. NRY


I Just Have to Ask by EchoesOfTwilight Entry for Slash Backslash 2.0: Jasper uses his music to cope with the pain of unrequited love, hinting in song at how he feels about his bass player. When the time comes to say it more clearly, can he? M for lemons/language. AH. NRY


All the Years by katinki COMPLETE O/S, Finalist in Slash Backslash 2.0 Contest. How many times can one heart be broken before it shatters beyond repair? How many ways can one body yearn for another before dissolving to nothing? How many years must pass before he acknowledges me? NRY


Voyeuristic Rendezvous by my hubby is no edward Bella moved to Forks seeking solace from a life she built in Phoenix. Forcing herself to forget old habits, what happens when a brooding, mysterious Emmett makes her remember all she hoped to escape? VR


A Portrait Of the Physician As a Young Man by winterstale AH M/M Final Round Judges' Choice Slash/Backslash 2.0 Seventy-year old memories come to light when gay men from two generations meet. Will Carlisle reveal the story of his first love to Jasper or keep his secret behind a facade of English civility? VRA


Happy Birthday Riley by TwiBoy It's Riley's birthday and Edward wants to help him celebrate properly. Entry for the Slash Backslash One-Shot Contest. Rated M for language and adult content. AH/OOC/Slash NRY


The Second Time I Had Sex by Conversed Jasper plus Riley equals lovin'. "I saw the attraction to Riley the first time I laid eyes on him, y'all. I didn't know; I had no idea that I was made that way. I just thought I was lonely. Turned out I was just alone." Slash Backslash 2.0. NRY


P for Pixelated People by hunterhunting Bella and Edward discover an online gaming society and their cyber identities collide. It isn't until they realize they know each other in the real world that the fireworks begin. O/s based on an FML prompt and originally written for Nashville relief. NRY



L4J note: I'm no longer going to be reading slash fics. Its going to be hard since I have been on a slash diet for the past couple of months but I'll transition out of it. In fact, I cut back a lot last month so I should be cool. I want to thank Twiboy and Darkira who are two of my favorites from the beginning and all the others that came after like them EFC, tuesdaymidnight and countless others that entertained me.


Thanks for escape. I apologize to all my readers if that's your preference I cannot recommend what I'm not reading but I can tweet about it, I'm just kidding! Thanks for your understanding on this issue.


L4J’S KEY
VRA= Very Responsive author
AR= Author Responded
NRY= No Response Yet
IN2R= I Need to Review


I will update these as authors respond or if I made a mistake and need to correct information provided so far. 


Another L4J Note:

10/2 Reading list for this month: Its going to be a surprise to the author so I'll let you know later. Hands on Me, then Toe to Toe, then the blackwater story, then Life in Technicolor. If you read my blog or follow me on twitter you realize how much I read so give me a chance I do have a life plus rec'ing these fics to keep my peeps happy. Jacob fic reading this month but if an Emmett or a Jasper fic comes around and looks good I'm reading it. I gotta be honest.


Stories I Beta

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5460646/1/Through_His_Eyes Please watch the trailer below. Last Update on 9/30

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5802471/1/True_Love_Nessie_and_Jacob Last Update on 7/29


http://www.fanfiction.net/s/6314880/1/My_Boyfriends_Jeans last update 9/30


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I created a Jake & Nessie Community here's the link: http://www.fanfiction.net/community/Jake_Nessie_Fics/81638/ Check it out! Give us suggestions so we can add to it. I want to thank my awesome staff and fellow critics: Nikki - Twilight Lover and ILOVETWILIGHT79 We're picky as hell but if its good we will not stop fangirling about it or promoting it at least I won't lol!


Try me if you don't believe me! Oh hubs asked me to stop using the word pimp so I switched to the word promote. I'm also a staff member of http://www.fanfiction.net/community/Underappreciated_Yet_Awesome_Twilight_Fics/71562/ 60 subscribers and growing!


Some of my favorite fics have been added to this community so check it out for some really great fics that might not have the twilight fic marketing machine behind them. Also I need blinkies and banners so if you got the skills holla at me. Seriously, I have no computing abilities outside of basic stuff. Happymess did my wonderful header which I love. Isn't it great? Well I think so.


See around the water cooler. Thanks for all your support,


L4J

Notebook Breakdown!

Greetings,


My follow twilight fanfiction addicts. My notebook had to be sent back to HP to have its hard drive replaced so I apologize for not updating in a timely manner but I'm trying to re-trace my reading foot steps. Please have patience with me and I will update this blog this week trust me. I read a lot of stories but I had a excel spreadsheet to keep track of it all so bare with me. I love you guys and I hope to see you guys real soon!


Love,
Luv4jake

Slash Backslash Contest 2.0

If you know me or read this blog you know that I'm a contest reading h00r! I can't stop myself, well here I go again. I just read the most amazing slash o/s stories this morning and yesterday. I have to share with you of course! Anyway, here is the link to the contest http://www.fanfiction.net/community/Slash_Backslash_2_0/68069/14/0/1/. 


Until next time folks!


PS I will post the five one shots I loved next month with my recs.

Twi-Buddy Check 9 Day

Its the ninth of the month and that means one thing its Twi-Buddy check 9 day. Every ninth of the month I remind all the women in my life to do a self-breast exam and to schedule their annual pap smear. I had my annual exam this year already so yay Nya but I do need to do my self-breast exam every month. I hope you will join me this month and do the same. I have been doing self-breast exams since I eighteen years old every month.


The buddy check 9 program saves lives so I thought why not spread it to my twitter & twilight friends. I want to add another element to the mix though. Alex, my husband had a cancer scare  in 2004. He had a lump in his prostate it scared the hell out of us. He found out about it when I pushed him to have his annual exam. He was thirty four at the time and they did a biopsy and it was clear but he was lucky. Thank God for that but not everyone is so lucky. Please remind the men in your lives to have their physical exam. It could save their lives and your heart the pain of possibly losing your loved one early.


My best friends father, Benny, lost his battle with colon cancer after two years. He suffered and lived longer than the six months the doctors predicted that's showing em Benny. My point is that I nag the hell out of my father to have his annual exam and check his colon and prostate every year. Please give your dad or grandpa a chance to say you are over reacting rather than not having the test done at all. I would hate for another great man to die too early. Not to be preachy but I'm begging for the men who could have been saved if only their doctors could have caught it sooner before it was too late.


I love all my twitter buddies and fanfiction authors and readers of this blog so if no other reason blame me for asking your love ones to do this I promise you it will save lives if we do this together. Your co-workers, family, friends, and associates to remind the people in their lives we never know who could be saved from these small actions.


Thank you for reading these words and I'll see you around here hopefully next month on the same day the ninth. Let me know if you have any suggestions or things that we can be talking about around here. Oh a side note: those new chocolate cheerios are delicious and are the healthier choice if your children love chocolate cereals. Just saying, I know that was completely random but so true.


Until next time folks! I love you! I love my followers you rock my tube socks! Please excuse the errors I need a beta for this blog. Seriously.

Recommendations

August (In order by the date I read them!)

The Passing Years by rainypromise After Eclipse,Jacob came back, got his life together and did pretty good,then he found out that for the last two years, Bella had been living in Port Angeles, that she was still human and unmarried. So now, of course, all bets are off.

Volturi Order by TheSpoiltOne, Footroza 15 yr old Bella has a fairly normal life. That was until her mum's new boyfriend came on the scene. Will Bella survive her new life? Dark Themes, Cannon Pairings. GRAPHIC (AVR)

In My Arms by exhaleblue Edward, Emmett, and Jasper are bachelors living the life. One morning everything changes with a white basket and a wailing newborn. Loosely based off the movie Three Men and a Baby not a crossover. (AVR)

Starting From Scratch by Duessa de l'esprit The Cullens must rebuild their financial foundation, perhaps in less-than-honest ways, after all they have has been utterly squandered. This is definitely a COMEDY, so prepare to laugh! It's also a love story. BxE/AH, rated T

Just Like Chocolate by FarDareisMai2 Winner Slash/Backslash One Shot Contest. Jasper reminisces about his life with Edward, the texture of buttercream, and the capacity to love. AH. Rated M. Explicit sexual content. Additional outtakes will appear at random intervals. (Slashtastic & AVR)

Freaks by IndependenceIndividuality Webster's defines a freak as 'a person, animal, or object that is oddly different from what is considered usual or normal. Abnormal; queer.' Well, screw them. (AVR)

Do You Remember by SweetLilB ...And here she was four years later. She found herself no longer running, instead standing still in front of the house that belonged to the sun that had brightened her life…Jacob Black…and as she stood there, she remembered… (NRY)

Edroar the Angry Lion by Tropical Sorbet Edroar the Angry Lion frightens all the girls and boys at Cullen Publishing with his loud roar. Will his new masseuse Bella Swan run away like all the rest, or can she tame this savage beast? AH/AU OOC (AVR & Roar)

Another Visit to La Push by deathroses  What was I doing? Jacob was my best friend, and that was that. Key word: friend. Why were my lips fastened to his, my hands grasping his shaggy hair desperately, and my body excitedly pressed against his? Why couldn't I stop myself? Rated M for later. (NRY)

Rub My Ass and Call Me Bella by wisdomous Birthday O/S for Ilsuocantante. Angela gives Bella an afternoon at the spa for her birthday. Will Bella get more than just a facial and massage? O/S extended to multi-chapter story! (AVR)

Hold On by todream From different worlds, Jacob & Nessie find each other despite the dire consequences that'll ensue if they continue their affair. Will his past & her sheltered life find a love that lasts, or will family secrets destroy it? AH-Howling Wolf Award Winner (AVR)

Surviving as the Fittest by BruiserSkinGirl Sequel to Survival of the Fittest: Edward and Bella are still together. But after an unexpected change in the Organization's leadership, Bella and Edward find that it's may be more difficult than they thought to live through it together. (AVR)

Not So Average by Thaigher Lillie Bella Is a plus sized girl determined to change how she feels about herself. But after a prank gone wrong at a college party will anyone care to help Bella pick up the pieces of Herself again? Will Bella ever recover her self esteem? Strong themes! (AVR)

Sweeter Than Blood by BellaFlan A sexual epic! This is the M rated version of the chapter "Sweeter than Blood" from my T rated fanfic "Imprinted." It was suppose to be a one shot but after story boarding, things got, ahem, out of hand. (AVR)

One Shots

Jacob's Tent Fantasy by DazzledbyJake Jacob's POV of the tent scene in Eclipse. This is the original, written on April 12, 2009. Imitators are out there. (AVR)

Sex on the Beach by LovekillRealm Set after the bonfire party in Eclipse. Bella and Jacob spend some time alone and Bella decides who she loves. LEMON WARNING. BellaxJacob No pairing flames please, you have been warned in both lemon and pairing

Yes, Ma'am! by CarminMoon Entry for the Tattward & InkElla contest. Emmett decides to get a cover-up from a past relationship. Will this new tattoo bring about a future relationship?

A Valentine For Sandy Singer by winterstale AH OOC/OC *A submission to the Me and Mr. McCarty Contest* Gautama Buddha tells us, "You, yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection." A lonely girl grew into a quiet woman and found that truth beside a lonely man (AVR)

Foresight by Dahlia J Black Alice has an "orgasmic" vision and decides to make it a reality, with Jasper's consent. Written for Ninapolitan's Friday Free for All Series. AU/Eclipse. M for SMUT. AlicexJasper with a surprising twist. You have been warned. (AVR)

Fate Happens by SkyatMidnight Five years have passed since Jacob and Bella's falling out. They're living different lives and have seemingly moved on from their brief romantic encounter...but what would happen if fate brought them back together in a chance meeting? Rated M for lemons.

Fitting in and Standing Out by Darkira Being out and proud isn't always easy, especially for a teenaged boy who happens to crush on the blonde God in his new school. A blonde God who just happens to be painfully shy... For Slash Backslash 2.0. AU/AH/T/S&J

Beautiful Deceiver by I_am_Kate Sam Uley found his soul mate in the last person he ever expected--Seth Clearwater. A promise to Seth’s father keeps Sam from revealing his true feelings, but a wolf can only resist the one he's supposed to be with for so long. One Shot for the Slash/Backslash 2.0 Contest. (AVR)

Suck It Up by CedWardIsHot With just one phrase, the whole Cullen house is turned upside down. Alice sees Rosalie's future go blank, and Emmett just happens to walk in at the wrong, but very right moment. JacobxRosaliexEmmett. Edward and Bella have to listen. I don't own it.

Put a Ring On It by WhatsMyNomDePlume Edward keeps asking and I keep saying the same thing. But he loves asking… and don't tell him, but I'm starting to kind of like it, too. AH, B/E O/s for the Will You Marry Me contest.

Strings by TKegl PLOT BUNNY CONTEST ENTRY - It's Spring Break, and Bella and her friends are spending it at a lakeside cabin. Bella would rather be in Cancun, but when a certain hot guy paddling a canoe catches her eye, she just might change her mind. (AVR)

Onside Kick by wordslinger Just when Bella thinks Christmas is ruined, she makes a play that might save her game. Can she let go of Edward to let Jacob in? AH/AU **2nd PLACE WINNER TEAM SOB: RAIN SCENE CHALLENGE!**INDIE TWIFIC NOMINEE** (AVR)

Of Bets and Purrs by Darkira Edward and Jasper, two most sought after tops at the club, are rivals. One night they make a bet and winner gets to top the loser. Edward has never bottomed and Jasper has had a bad experience in the past. Who wins and what? AH/AU/M/Possibly OOC

Sweet Revenge by Lovin In The Oven Contest Bella's bakery may be thriving but her personal life is DOA. When her frustration reaches a breaking point will her "useless" employee with the black glasses and crazy hair be able to calm the storm and give her what she needs?(I loved this one and I voted for it too!)

A Bun in the Oven by Lovin In The Oven Contest Edward and Bella are trying to get pregnant. How do they keep it interesting? Simple…a little fun with food.

Bitchin' in the Kitchen by Lovin In The Oven Contest It's been a long, hot summer and Bella has had just about enough of her husband and the DIY remodel he's taken on with his brothers. Can things be resolved before the entire family arrives to demolish their kitchen?

A Taste of Fire by Lovin In The Oven Contest Would you like a little dessert after your meal? Too bad Edward has to wait a whole year for his. A/U Humor/Lemony Goodness!

Bag Boy by Lovin In The Oven Contest Twentysomething hairdresser Bella Swan just can't seem to get a date. What happens when she starts ogling the teenage bag boy at the local Thriftway? Is it desperation, or fate? Humor/lemons/icecream. o/s

The Way the Cookie Crumbles by Lovin In The Oven Contest Every baker has a little magic inside.

Scrumptious Morning Delight by Lovin In The Oven Contest A morning spent in the kitchen to help a friend turns into something more.

Blowjob at BJ's by Lovin In The Oven Contest Who knew that an ordinary trip to a factory could be so much fun?

There's Nothing Like Soul Food by Lovin In The Oven Contest As an overworked firefighter, Edward seeks some nourishment from his new wife Bella.

This Time, Next Year by Darkira Carlisle, a married man, receives a mysterious text message at a company party. Then another a year later. Who is texting him and why? Written for the Long Distance Lovin'-contest. AH/AU/M/Slash

Secondhand Rose by giselle-lx Emmett reflects on what it means to spend eternity loving a woman burdened by her past. Canon.

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AR= Author Responded

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